Well, you guys know how much I LOVE this cool & exciting activity called MTB-ing but it seems like I have to reduce the biking time for doing something else for a while.
One problem is that my parents started pushing me to think more about getting married and stuff like that.
They started complaining about me spending most of time riding bike and not much doing for the future only a year or less ahead.
Additional problem is that I still live with my family
which means they can still control my life in a way.
They don’t tell me to quit MTBing or something but
just expect us to spend more time on thinking and talking and doing for our future than just spending good time on bike together.
They think we would take years and years to move forward as long as we keep ourself busy with bikes.
Now, everytime John asked me when/where I want to ride,
of course I want to jump on his offer but I just don’t know what to say
and he only question about my strange reaction and never understand what’s going on.
Seriously I DO want to ride,
I don’t mind to spend every weekend on trails,
You know how much I get excited every time I go ride.
So, you must understand how much frustrated and stressed I am!
I’m frustrated that I can’t do what I want to do.
Well, untill I move out or breakup with mybf, it would not be easy to do what I like to do I guess.
I have to deal with frustration and stress from this “unfair”feeling”.
Why do I have to be the only person to deal with this sh*t.
and dealing with the sh*t is actually pain in the ***
which makes me want to be totally free from everything.
Wish I could be like John, live his life, no responsibilities, think nothing but ride.
Wish I were not a girl.
Then my life has been much easier.
Oh well, I just don’t know what to do with this frustration.